The past two days my voice has been lost. Both physically and mentally. After our trip, I woke up Monday morning feeling a bit sick. Being a person that decides to work through a ‘cold’, I continue to work full-time, sign on to our first home, be a mom to two, and carry our third.
A few days go by and now, I can barely get out of bed and can’t speak. Yes, I know I did this to myself but how else can a parent do it all? Yes, I am physically sick. A cold turned bad, into worse. But as I lay by myself I realize how hard it is to mentally stay at peace. Is it a sickness that causes my mind to race frantically and not let my body or emotions rest? Is my body physically burnt out and shutting down because my mind won’t rest?
What is the difference between being sick and burnt out?
I honestly do not know and I have been thinking about it all day. This question and many other things on my mind. Scientifically the body cannot function without the mind. But what happens when the body tells the mind to shut up and chooses to shutdown? What happens when the mind doesn’t listen to the body?
I need to find a way to be at peace and a way to neither get sick or burned out. If that is even possible.
Nobody-Default 