Lately, I have come to realize that fear holds many of us back, including myself, to become the best versions of ourselves. Fear prevented me from writing anymore. I was scared others, besides a trusted friend, were reading my intimate thoughts and feeling. Complete strangers were seeing a side of me many I hold dear to me barely ever see. I have realized though that I want to move past my fears, big or small. I want to become the best version of myself no matter other peoples concerns, opinions, or my owner inner fears.
It is amazing how the hardest thing to do in life is battling with myself on a daily basis. Even in today’s world with the political and environmental climate, I still struggle with my inner thoughts and fear multiple times a day. I have to tell myself, I am lucky, I am loved, I am worthy, and to keep moving forward. To most this might sound a bit silly since there are so many other devasting occurrences that have occurred and are occurring. But, my inner battle to face the world and be apart of it, is my hardest challenge and biggest fear to conquer.
To overcome these insecurities and fear, I decided to write down what I want from myself. Things that no one else can help me with and hold myself accountable. Now this list I have accumulates is not an easy task, is daunting, and will take years to accomplish but I have seen small changes already in my daily life. It is my reset in mentality that I was needing to start really living life instead of just walking through the motions and allowing my fear hold me back.
I am on this journey, no one else, and I am the only one who can make the change, no one else and the fear of others’ opinions will not stop me.
Nobody-Default 