Oddly enough it is natural to have a sense of a tribe or a community. Due to all my moving around the past decade, my community is all virtual. My best friends live all throughout the world and our main ways of communication are text, calls, video calls, etc. I miss all my friends dearly because those I keep near and dear to my heart know me well enough that I can trust them. My trust is not easily gained and you can say that these select few individuals are good people.
My counselor mentioned that I should start trying to look for an in-person community in my area. She asked where I thought I may “fit in” and to be honest, I have no clue what tribe or group of people I would enjoy being around. If you look at my chosen friends they are all vastly different in some way. You have the country gal, the hippie intellect, the artsy genuine guy, the smart engineer, the religious outgoing beauty, the worldy scientists, etc. If you lined up my friends the only connection they have to one another is that they know me.
So what type of community do I want to try and branch into in my new town? I have no fricken clue! I barely know what passions in life I enjoy besides enjoying time with my family, cooking, and being outside in nature. The old passions I had of sports, art, and reading all now cause me anxiety due to my family creating trauma around those activities while I grew up. I miss all those things but I have noticed I get scared and anxious to this day every time I partake in them as a grown adult.
So what is next? Guess I will just take small steps and try to put myself out there.
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