Every day is a new day but in the course of a mere 24 hours, many life-altering events can occur. Yesterday an announcement was issued at work and I was surprised about my reaction. I was uneasy when I thought the initial reaction would have been a relief. After much contemplation, I realized that I was uneasy because I was more concerned about our whole organization than myself. My first response was to worry about others then it was to be relieved about my own mental and emotional health.
If you come to know me, this wouldn’t be much of a surprise but this is a concern for me. My natural instinct is to put others before myself. Even if the ultimate outcome will hurt me, I naturally gravitate to make sure others are not hurt. If we lived in an age of survival of the fittest, I would probably be long gone by now. Which is sad to think about. I am not sure why I gravitate to make sure others feel safe or are safe in life. To most this sounds sweet but to me is starting to be a burden. I am realizing that this natural instinct really does hurt me in life which in parts trickles down to hurt my family.
I need to start unpacking why I naturally put others before me and find a balance. Because I am starting to realize this empathetic way of life is only going to hold me back in life and then burden my childern to work harder in life. And this mere thought is uneasy.
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