Survival is a funny thing. Most think it is starting a fire and hunting your own food to survive. But in today’s society, it is performing tasks you don’t want to complete to appease others. This way you don’t shake the boat and cause others to gravitate away from you. It is the whole concept of a, scratch my back and I will scratch your back mentality.
As much as I hate it, that is today’s reality that I live in and it is a reality I have tried to avoid many times. My stomach turns and my heart sinks to think this is where I have ended up. Then I realize there are no circles or systems that don’t have this mentality. It is ingrained in our society and taught over the years and time. It is unavoidable and this is heart-wrenching.
Survival in my eyes is not a give-and-take with other humans. But is a give and take with ourselves and mother nature. How did we end up giving each other this power to control one another’s survival? Regardless, now I need to come to terms with this reality that I thought I could avoid. I need to come up with a way to not feel this pit in my stomach and this disappointment. I need to figure out a way to survive in today’s society.
Nobody-Default 