Toxicity versus vibrante joyful energy. There are many forms of energy in our world. Hell, I heard our body is made up of more energy then actual mass. It is hard to feel and understand all the forms of energy that surround us and that are within us.
Oddly enough, this topic of energy keeps coming up in my life. Many friends of mine and even my mother mentioned how I connect and feed off the energy that surrounds me. Hence why I become drained so fast and so often. I never really noticed it but now when I think of it, my intution and feelings are intertwined with the energy of the world. More specifically the energy that sheads off of other people.
Taking some time to self-reflex, this is probbaly why I spent so much time escaping into voids where others could not touch or be around me. I would hide in my forts, take lengthly trips and volunteer at the library, take cleaning jobs, and escape into my books and headphones for hours. This is not the norm in my family so let’s say this was an oddity that one of us wanted to be by ourselves.
I have come to learn that it is difficult to turn off my senses and not feel and notice all the energy that surrounds me. What makes it even worse, is that when I sense sadness, anger, or emtions that evoke hardship, I want to fix it. I want to swoop in and wipe away strangers tears, I want to step into fights and explain there is no need, I want to hug and comfort those that I have no relation, I want to give good vibes and wipe away toxic ones. Although, this is a lot to handle. I am slowly learning to find the balance.
How do I turn off the intution of feeling the energy that surrounds me and do I want to is the main question?
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